Apr 9, 2018

Booby traps

Sooo....about this committed approach.

I'd say I earned an 'A' for effort but the reality is that it probably deserves a C+.  The week started strong, and truthfully my eating was better. So that's a win right?

I am having bulletproof coffee which for me is intended to be my breakfast and help with intermittent fasting.  The fasting is to help get me on track (and yes it is very yummy and filling!)  I don't eat breakfast immediately anyway, so I would rather sip my coffee on the hour long commute into work anyway.  And this is a good thing!  Theoretically with the intermittent fasting, I should be waiting until 11 or 12 to eat my first meal. No big deal.

BUT..... I realized that habits are very hard to break! 
No matter what my body was telling me or not, a routine or habit of eating a tablespoon (or two or three) of peanut butter for breakfast was realized by Wednesday. 

Okay okay....get that in check.  I didn't buy any new peanut butter for my office this week, and I cleaned out my desk of any other tempting food on Friday.

On the more positive is that my water intake has been up to 92 to 128 every day this past week, and my basic walking and stairs has improved.  The trick is to drink the water to where you end up peeing every hour and then walk to the furthest one away. ha!

I haven't added in the working out quite yet while I try to focus on getting my food habits in check.  I'm craving the working out, but I'm also aware that I don't want to sabotage myself by saying 'oh since I'm working out...then I can splurge on some carbs.'  I know how my cheating justification mind works.

Baby steps, right.  That's the plan. Keep moving forward, even when I fall off...pick myself up and move on with this adventure!

Moving forward to a new week and better track!


And if you didn't get all of the homage references in Stranger Things, 
then I know I am way too old to be blogging again. 

Mar 30, 2018

Such a tease....

I was called many things when I was in high school and college....

I don't mean to be a tease, I really don't.

I really need to stop teasing myself and really be ready for a commitment for myself.  I can't commit to a consistent blog, but I have to commit to myself again.  I worked hard to take control and lose weight for myself in 2007 -2008.  Wow...typing that out I realize it was 10 years ago that I went through the quest! That was before any blog days that I stalked long before I tried my hand at blogging (and failing...)

While I've been eating 80/20 low-carb for the last couple years, this past year has been very difficult with the lack of exercise, but mentally difficult with the Vegan Experiment of Hubs that lasted nine months. Lordy it was not fun or easy to fill him up veganish and all with rice or quinoa and there I was avoiding them and potatoes and anything of carby/starchy substance.  "Vegan-Hubs" ended up losing 15pounts and well I um, well here I'm here blogging about recommitting to myself.

By a medical twist of fate, Hubs will be reverting to KETO with me and having him on board will help keep me on the straight and narrow.  

Today was our first day being strict KETO. 
I managed to strip down to a net carb day of 16.
My water hit 128oz
and no diet soda.

And despite 3months of plantar fasciitis pain,
I have reset the 4:30am alarm to suck it up and get some exercise in again. 
I need it , mentally.



Jul 9, 2017

What the #$%?

So here I am trying my best, or at least better....no matter how much I change and try, that evil scale in the bathroom isn't changing.

I know, I know...I'm more than a number.
Eh, you know what, it is a horrible habit to break and while I do use my clothes and my overall feeling as a guide, that number does play into my whole 'journey.'

Despite giving up sodas (finishing up week 3!) and bumping up my water, and bonus workouts....

How the hell am I up? 
Why am I seeing numbers that I haven't seen in YEARS, really?!?
I feel GOOD, my quads are back, my hamstrings are tight from not being stretched properly. What the ever living hell?


Really struggling with what type of protocol will work for me lately. Now that Hubs has gone insane vegan, he's back to brown rice and lentils and potatoes and such.  I'm making lunches the same as b3efore for the kids and they are encouraged to eat at least half of the vegan dinner I'm prepping.  Most often, they are supplementing with peanut butter or some eggs after eating their required veggies.
But what about me?  I'm still avoiding breads and potatoes and such, but the abundance of watermelon and fruit is making this more difficult.

Pretty much my days are starting as strict KETO with bulletproof coffee and a morning fasting, but by dinner time I'm eating vegetable and fruit carbs.  Okay and some popcorn or pretzels...okay, snacking mindlessly, but you get the point. Totally NOT KETO. KETO doesn't work half-way, its all the way or nothing.

I really need to recommit food wise as well as everything else I'm doing. 

What's the point of getting your groove back if you keep sabotaging yourself with watermelon?

Jul 6, 2017

A Divided Home

Once upon a time (back in 2007) I started my journey by picking up the discarded WeightWatcher books and tools from when I paid in 2005 for a total of 16weeks for my piddly 12lb loss.  But for some reason when I picked them up on my own accord in 2007 and without any fees and meetings stressing me out, it worked.  No honestly have no clue as to why it finally clicked but it did.

A WeightWatcher diet of the same things everyday:
Breakfast: Fiber One Bar = 2pts
Lunch : Sandwich bread (1 pt for 2slices), mustard, spinach and turkey for a total sandwich of 3pts. 100Calorie bag of SunChips or a mini bag of popcorn.
Snack: fruit (1-2pts) or RiceCake
Dinner: what ever I could eat for 10-13pts

Every day.  And it worked...back then.
But then my stomach disowned me and decided that it didn't want to cooperate anymore.  So I've pretty much been gluten-light, lowcarb or carb-light since 2009ish.  I realized that I felt better than ever and it worked for me just to manage my IBS and whatnot.

Enter in 2017....January of this year Hubs and I went in head-first to go full on KETO.  The whole bulletproof coffee and fatbombs and the whole spiel.  In 2 months, he lost 25lbs and got his abs back.  I got myself back into feeling good and fitting better in my clothes.  I personally love it, but it isn't easy.  I had slipped in the last month or so, more cheat weekends that were becoming regular and just stress eating.

So last month when I recommitted to my journey and getting that fluff back off, I returned to strict KETO.  Made a batch of fatbombs, my jello (that I have to hide from the kids), nuts, cheesesticks and so on and so forth.  The first week went well, but this past week I was hit with a doozy.

Me - "Finishing up here. Want me to pick up a chicken from HEB or did you already eat?"
Him - "I'm going vegan - we will see how long it will last"
Me - "Seriously??"
Him - "Yes"
Me - "Really? Are you really?"
Him - "Yes"


My lovely Hubs randomly texts me that he's going Vegan on a Tuesday night.

Vegan?  Not transitioning into vegetarian, but going full core straight into vegan.

From KETO!? Hello? This means our diets are complete opposites of one another. He will be able to eat grains and potatoes and fruits, whereas I'm eating meat, cheese, nuts, and green veggies.

This journey is getting more difficult every day.



Jul 1, 2017

June Report Card

Well well well...its been two weeks since I last had a moment to disclose, erm share what is going on.

Two weeks ago I popped back on here randomly after 18 months of not a single post, to share that I am trying to get my 'groove' back.

For the last part of June, if a professor was grading me, I would get a 75%.

  • 430am workouts - 4 days a week == "B" - 3 days both weeks
  • Restart C25K =  "D" - yeah, no. I managed 2 miles powerwalking
  • Diet Soda fast - try to eliminate the habit again = "A++"
  • Increase water to 80oz (current average is 64-70) = "A+"

The morning alarm routine is probably the hardest right now.  My schedule is still crazy long with the kids summer schedule, I'm not home until much later than usual and I'm beat mentally and physically. Hence why I have to work out so early!  Both weeks I managed to work out on Mondays,  Tuesdays and then Thursdays.  I'm shaking my head at myself, until three months ago, I'd been waking up that early every single day for  4 years.  Baby steps April, baby steps.

I didn't think jumping back into the runs would be best, so I skipped out on official C25K plans and just jogged and walked when I felt it.  I think if I start the official plan, I should be able to start back at Week 4 or so and then build back up.

The one habit that should have been the easiest is the one I am proud of.  Dropping the soda habit again was the easiest, but probably the best thing for me (I know I know...) as I was using it out of habit not want or need.  I had started purposely packing one for the commute home, but it was being drunk before I had met my water goals, simply because I was driving home.

Speaking of that water goal, I remember when I was the girl who coworkers made fun of for lugging my water jug around and sucking it down all day long. That was a GALLON jug.  Nowadays, I'm not at my desk enough to get it in, but what I truly think is holding me back is that Hubs got me a newer jug, a silver RTIC 64oz jug....but its silver and I can't see the water in it.  I think its a 'out of sight, out of mind' effect going on.  So I'm going to use my clear container next week to see if the visual helps me get to my goal during the day.  I'm hitting my 64oz at work barely, plus my 20oz before work (on workout mornings) and then usually another 20oz before bed.  That sounds like a lot but there was at least two days that I managed to barely hit 32oz while I was at work, just running around for work and not enough time for April.

I can definitely do better, but I'll have to accept it for my first stab at truly truly trying again.

July will be even better.

Jun 19, 2017

2017 Summer Goals

If I'm going to try to do this, I need to do this right.

We are at mid June, but for the remainder of the month:


  • 430am workouts - 4 days a week
  • Restart C25K
  • Diet Soda fast - try to eliminate the habit again
  • Increase water to 80oz (current average is 64-70)
No weight goals for June, let's face it there is only two weeks left. My ultimate goal is to get to the end of June, assess if I was able to do the above before ramping up for July goals.

I recently was just daily teetering between the 150s and 160s (literally 158 in the mornings on Fridays to 163 on Mondays!) Goal for end of July is to hit 157, a total of 5 pounds.

No weight goals for June, let's face it there is only two weeks left.


Jun 17, 2017

The 2017 Dust-Off


Hmm...
I'm not too sure about it, but the want is there.

Do people still blog?
I know I miss reading blogs....
the friends I made....
the cheering section when I would have a good week...
and the shoulders for when I would have a bad week...

If anyone remembers where I left off with this blog,  I had gotten a new job in January last year. I'm still there, working like crazy...a physically and mentally draining job that exhausts me to no end.  Ironically I do like the work.

My fitness, the reason I ever had a blog, hasn't maintained like I would like it.  I spent some time today revisiting old times scrolling through my own blog to see where I am now compared to where I was.

June 2017
now 41years old and holding out at 162lbs. (Roughly where I was in late 2015.)

I held my weight down between 156-160 for most of this year, but bad habits are creeping back with my "no time for exercise" excuse.

I can't complain! I know that I haven't worked out regularly since the time zone change.  I have inched my way back to my 430 wakeup calls, but only averaging two a week.  Things could be much worse.  But I miss my mental health more than anything.

I miss the exhausted satisfaction of finishing 3 or 4 miles every morning while everyone slept.  I miss finishing up my night with the kids and cleaning and know that I had given myself that hour in the morning.

This upcoming week is my 'no more slacker April' reset.
I have a full can of my protein powder, which is so much easier for lunches during the summer, and I have a focus to get that "April time" again.

Will I blog about it again? I hope to, but I also don't want to stress myself out for entertainment either.  I want to think that writing it out again will help me stay on target.

And for old times sake...

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